The police officer kept replying with that line when the driver, who rear ended me on the freeway, tried to file an accident report against the driver and stalled vehicle we tried to avoid, so she wouldn't be at fault. The officers refused to write a report and left us to handle the case on our own.
It's easy to get mad and frustrated, especially after all the hassle and torment the last car accident brought dealing with medical bills and appointments for six months and insurance agents for nearly a year.
But accidents do happen.
As I sit here at the neurologist's office waiting to see what my future and brain's future will hold, with a raging headache I might add, it's hard not to lose hope and feel helpless and hurt. I want to point fingers. I want to blame somebody. I want to scream. I have plans, big plans this summer, and you're ruining it all!! And most of all, I want to be free -- free to bike, run, swim, cook, drive, etc. but I can't. I can't do anything because I have a concussion (the second in fifteen months =\).
One of few things I hate most in this world is laziness. And that's all I'm allowed to do and be for the next two weeks (at least!). :( There's only three things the doctor put on my to-do list: eat with friends, sit in a car, and walk around the block. Options one and two are limited because my head can barely stand sitting in a car.
One of few things I hate most in this world is laziness. And that's all I'm allowed to do and be for the next two weeks (at least!). :( There's only three things the doctor put on my to-do list: eat with friends, sit in a car, and walk around the block. Options one and two are limited because my head can barely stand sitting in a car.
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| "You look like the definition of relaxed," said my roommate. The life of a concussed is not as glamorous as it looks! I'm dying inside :P |
So cue sad thoughts and a depressing mood, but I don't want to do that this time around. I must stay positive. Instead of being super mopey, I'm going to try to use these next two weeks as an opportunity to see how much I've grown and to grow some more.
I'm going to challenge myself to put me first. I must take care of me and learn how to relax and do nothing. I'm not even allowed to think. How I had to make my car go from 60 to 0 on Saturday, I have to make my brain and body go from 20473618 to 0. Honestly, I rather do an ironman everyday for the next two weeks than what the doctor is telling me to do. You can't always get what you want...
But if you try sometimes, you just might find you get what you need! (Sorry, I had to. :) )
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| To pass some time, we wanted to play some games, but all the games I have at home are strategy/thinking games. So we went out and purchased a few non-thinking games. :) PS. This is how Tim and I are settling arguments from now on! |
As much as it sucks, I probably needed this challenge, so dear universe, I accept. Please be kind.
